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To my dearest baby,
You are now 34 weeks old. I can feel your kicks and puches every now and than. You are strong, lively, and independent already even though you are still in my body. Yes, I am afraid of being cut of my tummy by the doctor who might going to pick you up from inside of me.

Yet, I will say yes unconditionally as it is needed. for your safety and biggest benefit instead of my own preference. Also, I am so excited to finally see you in person though it will not be a pretty scene for both of us I can already imagine haha. But meeting you, is the most beautiful thing I can ever experienced. 

Sorry to say that I was not feeling anything mentally and emotionally while having you in my belly when you are Way smaller, as time has gone by, the connection and bond between you and me has been getting more complex and thicker on every aspect. I can feel you, touch you, comfort you, pad you, call your name, think about you and I know that you do too. 
I love you as I love myself. People say child is a part of parents', and they take advantage of this to have their children to obey to themselves blindly. It is highly possible that I might love you in the wrong way afterward, yet fearless to correct me, teach me, tell me and let me know for I will do too.

Unconditional Love, I was knowing nothing but understand it. Now, not only do I understand, but also I do experience it with all of myself physically, mentally, and emotionally. It should not be over exaggerated and used as sugar coat for everything immoral, but it should not have been underrated for good.
 

May you be yourself.

A free, strong in every ways, clever, and independent girl that I always have and always will Love

Love, Mommy